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i shut my laptop     eyelid the neon moon
stare up into the blindfold night     these hands graze
my body—animal & half-foreign

dig past skin     root for unborn
buds of breasts      i gut     [fluorescent pill bottles]
like sheep     spill their insides

across black sheets     rough constellations      i memorize their design

[my body]    a celestial/skeletal structure
a dull ache     crooke
mismatch

of sinew & wishbone    already snapped

[i am least crippled with my back pressed into the floor]

gravity & disability are grown together     tangled
as tightly as muscle & spasm

i am alone & naked     when bed & body creak     both things named frame
pushed to the edge     of breaking
hungry palms

howling over every inch of skin     shadow shape-shifting

in the changing light

By torrin a. greathouse

Biography:

torrin a. greathouse is a genderqueer, schizophrenic, cripple-punk from Southern California. They are the Editor and Co-Founder of Black Napkin Press. Their work has been published or is forthcoming in 3Elements Review, Assaracus, Heavy Feather Review, FreezeRay Poetry, Glass: A Journal of Poetry, Polychrome Ink, Rabbit Catastrophe Review, The Thought Erotic, Emerge Literary Journal, & The Feminist Wire. torrin’s work was nominated for the Pushcart Prize by Rust + Moth. When they are not writing or editing poetry, they are trying to survive in america long enough to earn a degree.