the worst things i remember
- the day i met you i told 7 people i met my soulmate
how fucking embarrassing is that - i still have the photo booth pictures we took
you stole a $5 out of your girlfriend’s wallet
and we kissed so hard
my gums bled - i gave up every part of myself to become
small
easy
casual
chill
i am none of those things
i am bad at being vulnerable
i don’t want to look
weak
i would drink bleach before letting you see one tear roll down my face - i dream about you every other night
while sleeping next to other people
i wake up and see their face
smell their breath
touch their shoulder
it feels like purgatory - just another dumb girl in love
i don’t want sad songs
i want to punch you numb in the face until you
want me back
By Shanna Williams
Biography:
Shanna Williams was born + raised in San Francisco, where she still resides. After an 8 year hiatus, she is writing again.